Friday, 26 December 2014

merry little holidays

First of all, I've started to just wish happy holidays to everyone and not Christmas because I've realised how many differently religious people surround me and I'm trying not be an asshole by wishing them a happy Christian festivities when they're not a part of them.

However, Christmas time can be a bitch. Sorry for my language but it's true.
Move aside magical Christmas Spirit, the smell of freshly baked gingerbreadmen and shopping madness. Christmas isn't all fun and peace, it has it's downside too. Like, it's especially hard to cope for those families or individuals who have lost their loved ones because in this time of the year some feel the absence more than on a normal day. Some maybe just quarelled with someone and can't overcome their pride so they pass the holiday season being all grumpy. Others maybe just don't see the magic in the Christmas as it is already taken over by the big industries and made into a shopping spree and unnecessary, dumb thing buying.
For me, this festive season has brought nothing but stress. Of course, also the good kind but the bad kind just tags along whatever I do. It unleashes unwelcomed fights and misunderstandings, inappropriate sense of humor that makes me tell jokes about really dark stuff (because I have a bit of a twisted sense of humor) or we just don't think so much about what we are about to say. And we don't do the things, the chores that we have to actually do and finish by the time the holidays have passed. So it just keeps us on such a high wave of happiness and then lets us fall down and crush into the wild ocean of responsibilites that we have to take care of. It is good to turn your brain off once in a while but I just know that with my working routine I will not get shit done by it's deadline. And I could do many things to prevent it but this is too much of a deeply rooted habit that it's close to impossible to change.

But I didn't want this post to be completely negative. Late nights just get the best of me and my sentimental heart (and realistic-thinking brain).
I love the holidays, I truly love giving gifts more than receiving them, I love wrapping them and unwrapping, I love decorating the Christmas tree and making fun of how crooked the tree stands. It's all fun and I love it, I can feel the love in the air especially in this time of the year. But as I said, I'm a sucker for realism and this all sugar-coated holiday has it's dark side.

Still, wishing everyone health, understanding, patience, happiness, a little bit of luck and most of all - love. Because love does make the world go 'round.
And see you in the next blog post from Italy!

 (photo credit: pinterest)

Wednesday, 24 December 2014

Unintentional Nike Advertisement

But intentionally bought as a couple anniversary gift last spring, because ... why not?
As I mentioned already, this year's December is full of things to do, errands to run and surprises.
First surprise - me. Haha, no, not like that. My boyfriend's mum had the best idea ever, that I would be his present for his birthday, as in - surprise, babe, it's me at the airport and not your mum! Needless to say, he was left speechless and totally happy, not expecting a thing and there I was, after more than 3 months of not seeing each other because of our LDR and many impediments for me travelling to Italy or he to Germany, but we managed it now.
And I haven't been more happy to be back in his arms and just enjoying fully every moment together and not just sharing all the cool and boring stuff via Whatsapp or Skype.
But, real life is a bit of a bitch, so for the Christmas I'm back home in Germany and with a bunch of stuff to do for University but the silver lining is that on 27th I'm going back to Italy, still with a lot of work to do and write, but at least I'll be with my otter half (see what I did there, muahaha).
And for the first part of my lovely holiday chaos I decided to share with you some photos we shot in Souther Italy, near where my bf lives. Such beautiful surroundings, you will see more of it in the next posts. The quality isn't the most professional one, but better than nothing; shot with iPhone 6 and it's kinda cool effects.

Sunday, 14 December 2014

Thursday, 11 December 2014

december, one

Wow, I just noticed I haven't published anything since the end of November. Honestly, I've been busy with life and university stuff; but I'm back, for now. I have some exciting plans for the holidays and I will share them later on.

I don't want to do the small talk here on the blog, those are for conversations with people you really don't want to spend those agonizing 10 minutes of your time, trying to prove that you can talk as a normally functioning human being. So I'll skip that.
When I was super-little I thought that the world consisted of my grandparents' house, my own house and Australia (don't ask why, I was obsessed as a kid). When I was a teenager I thought that my life consisted of where I lived and of fantasies about other contintents and how the life would be there. And now, at 21, I'm still expanding my horizons, still learning something new, if not each day, then each week for sure. It's absolutely fascinating going back in your own memories and remembering the things you thought and in time realizing and understanding them, and sometimes maybe also not understanding, because maybe you're not old yet or you just don't have to know that.
Destiny will take care of what I do and what I don't need to know at the moment. I believe in destiny. But not like crazy-believe, my actions don't depend on simple wish on a magical destiny path that will guide me through life, no. Absolutely, not. I'm my own guidance and on the road of this weird and beautiful journey I learn from other people and different surroundings. It's amazing how much I know now and how little I knew back then, even if at that "back then" time I thought that my brain just couldn't handle more information. But now I see it all the time, that my brain, our brains, are such good information keepers without capacity limit. And I love it.
Of course, there may be some bumps on the road, like usual girls with bitch faces and guys who don't know what the hell they are doing on Planet Earth. But I can learn from them too, I can take all the positive and negative things and elaborate them in a way they suite me. I always tend to examine all sorts of energies that people give out in the world and learn from them.
People often say "the world is little", because they meet old college friends on the street. And with all the techs and progress itself we are able to travel the whole wide world. And I don't like that expression, "the world is so little". It is so not true. It may seem like it but it will never get boring, ever. The fascinating thing about this world and our lives is that not one moment, gesture, word, day is the same. We never take off jackets the same exact way, we never talk in the same tone or to the same people over and over again. Each time is different. If you're a pessimist, you will not see this, but if you're a realist like me, you will agree. The world is not a boring or a depressing place, it is full of excitement, fear, risk, happiness and love. And all these pretty things and meaning can be found in any part of the world, in any object, person, animal, small or big. You just have to open your eyes and your mind to it all and absorb it. That is one damn good feeling.

But there aren't always positive things, of course. People mess up, say what they don't want to say or just zone out from everything and just don't care. Sometimes I mess up too, I can't always act like a sunshine and spit out rainbows! We all mess up, but how we deal with it later is totally only our business. I learn from it and I cherish everything that has made me the human I am now. And I'm not done, there is more my eyes have yet to see and my brain to computerize.